What should i wear??

So I'm supposed to be going on this date with MaMa's boy next sunday.Im super excited about it but the day isn't going to come fast enough. So far details don't existent. We haven't talked about it. So while i've been trying to contain myself and keep up with all my work I've also been trying to figure out what I should wear? I want to look hott not slutty but like she's perfect to bring home to mom and spicy enough that i can't stop licking my lips.  That's the look i'd like to achieve. I haven't gone on a real date in so long i'm starting to get nervous. oh all the pressures... like what to where? how much do i talk? do i offer to pay for things?

So what should i wear? i honestly don't think i have anything in my closet that says "I'm perfect enough to bring home to mom but you're gunna be licking your lips all night" i might need to go shopping... so Yvonne( i know you're reading this) what are your thoughts on this??  I'm usually either showing cleavage galore or i'm in t-shirts. i dont have many  tops that are in between. perhaps i should go shopping for a new outfit.

Don't shit where you eat... but what happens when it follows you to the table

So I was thinking about all the couples at my work and that have worked with me and I always think to myself , what happens when they break up and they still work together? SUPER Awkward. As a rule of thumb i really try to just not even go there. I've been there done that (i'll tell you about him another time). wasn't fun. But there was this one time that i did hook up with someone who eventually ended up working at my job for a little. That was really odd. Sometimes he annoyed the crap out of me and sometimes i didn't mind chatting with him because there was no one else to talk to. He was definitely a pervert. By the time we were working together he had a girl friend and constantly he would make comments about taking break together and going out to my car and giving him head. I would just brush it off because i'm not one to make a scene. but there were times where i was so tempted to say something to a supervisor but decided against it because I knew he really needed the job. I mean perhaps that's not really my concern. He should know better. But I just couldn't do that to him. So instead i just dealt with the uncomfortableness.
But what does one due if someone you have dated or hooked up with starts working for you??  I mean in this economy people need to work and it's really hard to find a job so you can't just get up and walk out. Is it right to allow someone to make your work place uncomfortable?? No not ever. But i'm just the kind of person who would just rather deal with it so that person can provide for their family.  Now if that person didn't have ties to extra people like children and a wife I think perhaps i would be less hesitant to blow the whistle and say something. But for me anytime i've had to work with someone who made work uncomfortable  they always had extra baggage.

So no matter how cute a guy is at my work i'm just not going down that road again and hopefully i don't ever start working somewhere where i run into someone i've been with or someone i've been with starts working at my job.

His words made my heart leap

So "Mama's Boy" and I have been chatting on and off over the past week. We are both busy people though  apparently. This past Thursday we were supposed to go on a date but i never heard from. I didn't get upset over it, I've been crazy busy myself. He did write me to apologize and told he'd make it up to me and "Take me on the best date ever" and my response was like "Ok, Awesome".I know classy, right? So he responds with "yea u deserve a great guy, would u give me a chance hun" i read that and i felt my heart skip a beat. I mean no one has ever said that to me and i thought it was really cute. I didn't know what to say though. I've been thinking about those words none stop. I mean a chance like this doesn't present itself everyday( at least not in my world).But it took me over a day to write him back and the only thing my fingers could type before quickly hitting enter was "OMG....are you for real?"  I'm like 110% positive that is not the response he was looking for ( on the bright said I didn't say no). A part of me wants to say 'Yes' so badly. He's a sweet and genuine guy but i have a few reserves. 1.) Our schedules 2.) He's really a nice guy and I don't want hurt him( because some how some way I'm sure i could manage to) 3.) Distance, he lives in Orlando-ish. I think i failed to mention that to you earlier.


I could use some advice. I'm not sure how to answer him and asking a question in response to a question won't get us very far. Perhaps i'll have to see how the date goes first, right?? It's no good to jump the gun or put the cart in front of the horse. Like how horrible would it be if someone spent $60,000 on a vehicle before test driving it and then after they got it realized it was a stick shift and they hate driving manual or realized they didn't fit inside the car?? One word: DISASTER! I'd laugh at that person and call them an Idiot. Like Who does that? But I do owe him an answer and like a good answer not some cheesy line from a movie. Like "You're a great guy and all but I don't think we'd work out. we 're just two different people" or classic line "It's not you, It's me" Or " Let's just be friends". If my decision is 'Yes' then does a simple "yes" work? or do you have to get fancy be like "I'd love to" or "You had me a hello" 


I'm so nervous my butterflies have butterflies. This could be shot to have a decent relationship that quite possibly lasts longer than 4 months or it could be just another relationship that goes no where.  I'm so over bad relationships with crazy crack heads, liars, and douche bags.

I teared up just a little

So a couple of weeks ago I said goodbye to My 'Regular'. He moved to Michigan( i think). He got a scholarship to play rugby or something which is a great thing. I am truely happy for him but when he first dropped the bomb on me i really thought i might cry. I mean We've been hooking up on and off for extended peirod of time and i grew attached not like i was in love but like hey I've known you intimately for some time. I will miss "hanging out" however he is counter productive to my mission. we had a proper good bye and as tradition would have it i was sore and in pain for the following couple of days. So onwards in my search for love and so long Mr. Regular.

The Joys of Texting... Eh YOU SUCK!

So I have this thing about texting and i'm sure it's not just me but i'm the only one who says anything. WHY AM I ALWAYS THE ONE TO TEXT YOU? WHY CAN'T YOU EVER TEXT ME FIRST? I've noticed that with my all my male friends If I don't text them first then the likely hood of having a conversation is slim to none. It drives me crazy. It's like i want to talk to you and say hi and have a nonsense conversation about absolutely nothing but i don't want to come off as psycho-texter chick that's always blowing up your phone.  It'd just be nice to get a text every once and while from you saying hi and asking me about my day. Is that too much to ask for??  It's almost like a cruel joke trying to make oil and water live in perfect harmony. Men and women are so different and we drive eachother crazy but we can't live without one another( or at least most of us can't)  We communicate differently. we think differently. we feel differently. Makes you wonder if gay people have it easier?

WOW

Ok so I've totally neglected my blog. I have had a lot more school work than i was expecting and I haven't figured out how to delegate my time. So my bad. But i do plan to get back on the bandwagon like yesterday.

So lets see since last we spoke my prospect pool for potential relationships has been rather stagnant. My life is kind of hectic. Lame I know. Most recently, like within the last week a young cutie hit me up. He's big into basketball. So lets call him Hoopster.He's cute and fun but he's younger than me. I've sworn off younger men, it never works out. but then again older guys haven't worked out either. He's only like a year younger than me, that's like being the same age right?? He seems pretty awesome. We've been texting like crazy.  I've definitely been enjoying the attention. Sometimes i think i like the attention more than anything. Maybe that's why i get bored in relationships. 

So Hoopster and I have been texting then out of the blue this other guy that i've talked to on and off for a couple of years messaged me. I'll call him MaMa's Boy. That's the one thing that stands out about him. We haven't talked in a while so my mind is blank. you know what they say, outta sight outta mind. I think he bowls and the only reason i can come to that conclusion is because his SN references bowling. Although now that i'm straining my brain trying to figure this guy out i just realized that I am friends with him on Facebook, I should go stalk him when im done.

Old men LOVE me

          Apparently there's something about me that older men like. And by older I'm referring to like 31 and up. I'm confused as to why. I've only been able to stumble upon 2 of my own conclusions and there one that I've heard time and time again.  One of the reasons I've come up with is that I'm very mature for my age and it must radiate from my essence. I'm practical and a lot more realistic than most women my age too. My second conclusion is the opposite. I'm thinking that old men must assume that because I'm younger I'm vulnerable and easy. I have to say that's a horrible assumption though. I don't have any kind of Daddy complexes that make me want to be romantically involved with a man my father's age. I'm comfortable enough to admit that a 42 year old is attractive however I'm not one of those girls that can just ignore age. If you're 20 years older than me what can we possibly talk about?? When I bring you home to my parents for dinner how awkward is that is that when you actually know what they are talking about when they reference something from their childhood or young adulthood?? Not Cool. Maybe for some it works but not for me. I like older guys, but guys are like 2-5 years older; definitely not more than that.

        So the #3 reason that I've actually heard guys say is because I'M BLACK. I've had numerous older men tell me it's a fantasy of theirs to be with a black woman. I am attractive and curvy and BLACK. But i will never get used to hearing that from men. Is it really necessary for you to tell me you are interested in me because of the color of my skin?? That would be like me telling a guy I only want to screw him because he has blue eyes. How silly right?? There's more to a person than their physical features. And what's with the obsession with black women, are we supposed to be better in bed? Or freakier? Perhaps one of these days I'll know the answer. 


       I may be wrong for saying this, but I think the only time I would ever consider being with an older man would be if there was a considerable amount of money involved and never having to see him naked in the light. I like money. but then again who doesn't?  Love doesn't pay bills or keep me looking fabulous with a Fendi wallet in my purse.  I'm not saying money is everything but it is definitely worth something in a relationship.