I teared up just a little

So a couple of weeks ago I said goodbye to My 'Regular'. He moved to Michigan( i think). He got a scholarship to play rugby or something which is a great thing. I am truely happy for him but when he first dropped the bomb on me i really thought i might cry. I mean We've been hooking up on and off for extended peirod of time and i grew attached not like i was in love but like hey I've known you intimately for some time. I will miss "hanging out" however he is counter productive to my mission. we had a proper good bye and as tradition would have it i was sore and in pain for the following couple of days. So onwards in my search for love and so long Mr. Regular.

The Joys of Texting... Eh YOU SUCK!

So I have this thing about texting and i'm sure it's not just me but i'm the only one who says anything. WHY AM I ALWAYS THE ONE TO TEXT YOU? WHY CAN'T YOU EVER TEXT ME FIRST? I've noticed that with my all my male friends If I don't text them first then the likely hood of having a conversation is slim to none. It drives me crazy. It's like i want to talk to you and say hi and have a nonsense conversation about absolutely nothing but i don't want to come off as psycho-texter chick that's always blowing up your phone.  It'd just be nice to get a text every once and while from you saying hi and asking me about my day. Is that too much to ask for??  It's almost like a cruel joke trying to make oil and water live in perfect harmony. Men and women are so different and we drive eachother crazy but we can't live without one another( or at least most of us can't)  We communicate differently. we think differently. we feel differently. Makes you wonder if gay people have it easier?

WOW

Ok so I've totally neglected my blog. I have had a lot more school work than i was expecting and I haven't figured out how to delegate my time. So my bad. But i do plan to get back on the bandwagon like yesterday.

So lets see since last we spoke my prospect pool for potential relationships has been rather stagnant. My life is kind of hectic. Lame I know. Most recently, like within the last week a young cutie hit me up. He's big into basketball. So lets call him Hoopster.He's cute and fun but he's younger than me. I've sworn off younger men, it never works out. but then again older guys haven't worked out either. He's only like a year younger than me, that's like being the same age right?? He seems pretty awesome. We've been texting like crazy.  I've definitely been enjoying the attention. Sometimes i think i like the attention more than anything. Maybe that's why i get bored in relationships. 

So Hoopster and I have been texting then out of the blue this other guy that i've talked to on and off for a couple of years messaged me. I'll call him MaMa's Boy. That's the one thing that stands out about him. We haven't talked in a while so my mind is blank. you know what they say, outta sight outta mind. I think he bowls and the only reason i can come to that conclusion is because his SN references bowling. Although now that i'm straining my brain trying to figure this guy out i just realized that I am friends with him on Facebook, I should go stalk him when im done.

Old men LOVE me

          Apparently there's something about me that older men like. And by older I'm referring to like 31 and up. I'm confused as to why. I've only been able to stumble upon 2 of my own conclusions and there one that I've heard time and time again.  One of the reasons I've come up with is that I'm very mature for my age and it must radiate from my essence. I'm practical and a lot more realistic than most women my age too. My second conclusion is the opposite. I'm thinking that old men must assume that because I'm younger I'm vulnerable and easy. I have to say that's a horrible assumption though. I don't have any kind of Daddy complexes that make me want to be romantically involved with a man my father's age. I'm comfortable enough to admit that a 42 year old is attractive however I'm not one of those girls that can just ignore age. If you're 20 years older than me what can we possibly talk about?? When I bring you home to my parents for dinner how awkward is that is that when you actually know what they are talking about when they reference something from their childhood or young adulthood?? Not Cool. Maybe for some it works but not for me. I like older guys, but guys are like 2-5 years older; definitely not more than that.

        So the #3 reason that I've actually heard guys say is because I'M BLACK. I've had numerous older men tell me it's a fantasy of theirs to be with a black woman. I am attractive and curvy and BLACK. But i will never get used to hearing that from men. Is it really necessary for you to tell me you are interested in me because of the color of my skin?? That would be like me telling a guy I only want to screw him because he has blue eyes. How silly right?? There's more to a person than their physical features. And what's with the obsession with black women, are we supposed to be better in bed? Or freakier? Perhaps one of these days I'll know the answer. 


       I may be wrong for saying this, but I think the only time I would ever consider being with an older man would be if there was a considerable amount of money involved and never having to see him naked in the light. I like money. but then again who doesn't?  Love doesn't pay bills or keep me looking fabulous with a Fendi wallet in my purse.  I'm not saying money is everything but it is definitely worth something in a relationship.